subject line: gonna make it up to you



We met in the summer before sophomore year. I was out of touch with the dating world, and you were set on not getting back into it anytime soon. We fell in love. It didn’t seem like it at the time but lazy days on the couch, golf cart rides, and near death experiences as me as the driver encompassed the thing we had that I now finally allow myself to see as love. I should have loved you harder. I should have loved you longer. All I can promise you now is that you haven’t seen the last of me. I am determined to be your go-to, your family, the person that you never want to disappoint because the amount of love you feel for them is unbearable. I want the unexpected run-in that turns into a lifetime. I want to see you look at me again the way you used to. I want to feel again how I haven’t felt since the last day with you. I will never hurt you again. Even if it is 10 years from now. Let me make it up to you.