subject line: I said goodbye to this truck already

Worcester, Massachusetts
I used to write so many emails about you. How I loved you. How I got over you. How I’d never speak to you again. How I learned life without you. How I found happiness again.
And now, here we are, sitting in your truck four years later and I don’t know how to explain what my heart feels.
It feels for you, I know that. But I’m not sure if it feels for the old you, the one who broke me, or the one who came back.