subject line: I'm not a face, I have a name.

 

Bismark, North Dakota

Think you know the face of mental illness?

3.9GPA
Successful band
Well-known on campus
Talks to the university President on the daily
3 job offers after college
Student rep for high-level donors
Successful, well-paying job on campus
The face of my college.

Nightmares waking me every hour
Can’t use knives
Therapy once a week
Wake-up texts to make sure I’m alive
Check-up meetings every day
3 doctors
Strong meds with strong side effects
Breaking down every day
Can’t sleep alone
The face of mental illness.

I don’t want to be successful anymore. I just want to be known and loved. I am not just a face, I have a name, and I have a heart that’s bleeding and broken-please remember that.