subject line: how do I miss something I never had?


Nashville, TN

It’s weird going to college and everyone seems to have these heartbreaking stories of first love and last breakups. People are bonding over broken hearts and tears of regret and I feel so at a loss. I haven’t experienced that loss, I haven’t experienced that love. And the way they talk about it, the quiet that settles around us at 5 AM, it makes something inside my chest ache like nothing ever has. I don’t understand how it hurts so much when I’ve never experienced it. It makes me scared about what will happen when I do experience that.

And it makes me scared that I’ll never experience those emotions that makes everyone pause and nod in understanding and shared heartache.