subject line: from emily

 

Tulsa, Oklahoma

Dear Mysterious Friend,

I should have been working on some English assignment, but I found myself here, scrolling through these emails. Your email caught me off guard. It was posted a few days ago but I didn’t see it until today because I haven’t found myself here since I commented on your first email. If I’m being honest, after I published the comment I left it there and didn’t look at it again. I still haven’t. And if I’m being really honest, when I write words like that, when I open myself up and pour myself into the words, I feel like the words are no longer part of me when I send them out. Does that make any sense? Maybe. But anyways, I read your email and started to cry. I commented on your email because it broke my heart more than the others usually do and even though we’re in different circumstances, I felt that I understood and wanted you to know that you aren’t alone. So finding the email you left for me made me so happy. I am so thrilled that my words helped you. And it blows me away that you took the time to send that email. I mean, you didn’t have to; you could have kept it to yourself and moved on with your life. So thank you. Your words mean so much and I’m truly thankful that mine mean something to you too.

Something you wrote hit me and I’ve been thinking about it today. Tonight, before I go to bed, I’m going to write it in my own journal because I love it so much and you said it so beautifully.

”we both struggle daily and desire to love immensely.”


So, dear mysterious lovely friend (I love the idea of that!), I think you should know that I prayed for you today, as I drove through town. I felt that mysterious camaraderie of sorts. I’ll probably never know your name or get to know you, but that’s okay.

Maybe because it’s been a bit of a rough week, or because I get emotional when I’m tired, but I’m pretty sure I would burst into tears if I read your entire email again. Thank you so much for your beautiful words. I feel as if you’re doing better than you were when you sent your last email and that makes me so happy! I know life isn’t perfect but I’m elated that you might be doing even a little bit better. I’m doing better too and I will keep loving and fighting. I’ll remember that there is a God who gives grace when I mess up (which is pretty much all the time!) and I’ll remember you too. And I’ll keep praying for you as you keep loving and fighting as well.

Love,

Emily (not Geraldine or Linda, but Emily <3)