subject line: crisis of faith, or crisis in general

 

Iowa

I am losing my faith in God. Consequently, I am losing my friendships, my family relationships, my future plans, my sense of community, and the very fabric through which I have always viewed and interacted with the world.

I used to believe that people who walked away from their faith were choosing to take the easy way out. Now that I find myself here, I realize that (for me) this has hardly been a choice, and nothing has ever felt more difficult or more painful. I wish I could go back, but it wouldn’t be honest.

I guess what I’m saying is that I don’t know where to go from here.