subject line: struggling 20 year old girl

 

south dakota, USA

I read these, and re read the same ones again and again each night praying for those faces behind the screen. I dream of being the girl who had the boy in her sheets, with the smell you cannot help but want to last forever. I dream of being the married wife with the perfect husband to fall into at night. The one who drives her nice “mom car” with her picture perfect kids and Starbucks in hand. I dream of being a world changer, a life changer.

But none of this is me, I’m just a 20 year old trying to get through college and the hard parts of life. I am at that stage in life where all of my friends are in love and have been dating for long periods of time. Or there are people like me, watching all of your best friends fall in love and trying your hardest to be happy for them when really all you want is for that to be you. I haven’t had a boyfriend in YEARS, where is my Prince Charming and perfect love story? We all deserve a shot at love, but waiting is hard and not fun (trust me from experience). So instead I sit at home with Netflix and cheer those friends on and make sure I am there to help respond to the hard texts. Today is just a day I am tired, really tired of waiting and I didn’t know where else to go.

If you are waiting too, we can wait together and one day our love life will come. I have that hope and I promise it for you too.