subject line: the pain i'm causing


the bathroom floor

I turned 20 last week. Along with my presents and my family, I got the surprise of a positive pregnancy test. I’m really afraid to admit that I got pregnant while I was 19. I don’t know how to tell my mother the news because I know that it will shatter her heart.
I come from a long line of teen mothers and I know that my mother’s biggest goal when it came to me was that I would break the chain. I don’t have the courage to tell her that I’ve let her down. I don’t know if I’m strong enough to become a mother at 20 years old when I can’t even figure out what type of cereal I should eat for breakfast. I’m really afraid tonight and I just don’t want to be alone in all of this. I’m so sorry I let you down mom. Please forgive me.