subject line: this is it February 07, 2017 by Hannah Brencher OKC Love is choosing someone over and over again (even when it isn’t comfortable). It’s showing up when showing up doesn’t make a whole lot of sense. ”Don’t tell me you love me unless you’re prepared to choose me and to show up”I’d say those words until I was blue in the face. Now there’s a boy who is consistently choosing me, he chose me when I didn’t choose him. I’m 20 years old, sitting in my car at my university, deciding whether to drop out or go to class, and in the middle of all of that I can’t stop thinking about how he chooses me. I broke his heart three years ago, he disappeared for a bit, and now he’s back and he’s trusting me with his heart and nothing has ever felt more right or more peaceful. I think that’s how you know someone is it, when they feel like home. I’m bad about over-romanticising everything, but I swear when my head is on his chest that’s the only home I ever want to know. He’s steady and peaceful and I’m chaotic and everywhere. When I’m next to him I don’t question whether or not he loves me, I know he does, he shows me every single day. Instead, I keep thinking “this is it. this is him.”There are guys still out there that will text you at 2am just to tell you “you’ll get this in the morning: I love you” and not to send the 2am “im lonely” text that makes you feel dirty afterward.