subject line: dear 11 months & 15 days,

 

somewhere on the map.

Don’t beat yourself up, don’t blame yourself, don’t wonder where you went wrong, because darling you never did. It’s been 13 years, 13 years of tears, laughter, figuring myself out, and realizing reality. At first you’re gonna think it’s all your fault and it’s gonna hurt like hell. Then time will heal wounds along with God, and happier days will come. And you’ll realize these few important things. firstly, you’re not who left you, you’re who you love and what you love. secondly, you’re aloud to feel things, you’re aloud to be angry with the world for a little while but never stay angry because life is so beautiful and it’s waiting on you. thirdly, you find yourself at 3 am on the bathroom floor or at 3 in the afternoon at a coffee shop. so, 11 months & 15 days you aren’t alone and wherever you are on the map just know there’s someone out there who was you at one point and that they made it through it and that they are praying and begging the lord that you do to. you have it in you and I believe in you. yours truly-13 years