subject line: I'm a coward. April 15, 2016 by Hannah Brencher self-inflicted torture, usa I am marrying a great guy. He’s my best friend and he is a good hearted man. And yet, I know my heart belongs to someone else. I’ve known it all along. From the very beginning, every gaze into my eyes, lingering smile, and moving words have been empty and void. And horribly, I am still seeing the man I love. He touches my very being. I can’t find the strength to let him go. I’m staring face to face with the most selfish heart I’ve ever known... And it’s mine.