subject line: mere thoughts

It’s much easier to not know things sometimes. Things change; the one guy I have ever loved moved away to Columbia, MO. Which in terms made me realize that life doesn’t stop for anybody. I wanted to laugh. Or maybe even get upset. Or maybe shrug at how strange everybody was, especially me. I think the idea of it all is that every person has to live for his or her own life and than make the choice to share it with other people. You can’t just sit there and put everybody’s lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can’t. You have to do things. In this life I’m going to do what I want to do. I’m going to be who I really am. And I’m going to figure out what that is. Really we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about each other and blame a lot of people for what they did or didn’t do or what they didn’t know. I don’t know. I guess there could always be someone to blame. It’s just different. Maybe it’s good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there.