subject line: It's not your fault.

 

the bathroom floor

I want to apologize to my parents,

to tell them I’m sorry you had one daughter that did it right. One daughter that is engaged to her high school sweetheart and is the envy of all of New York with her beauty, grace and talent. She is the epitome of a daughter you brag to your friends about at dinner club.

I’m even more sorry you had another daughter that has had an eating disorder, depression, and seems to drive every good relationship away with her inability to “break down her walls”.

I’m sorry you try desperately to build me up to your friends.

Most importantly, I’m sorry I let you down. It wasn’t supposed to be this way. You were the best parents a girl could ask for. And I ruined that with my own mind.

I’m so sorry