subject line: jump ship.


bollivar, missouri

The truth is that the more intimately you know someone, the more clearly you’ll see their flaws. That”s just the way it is. That is why marriages fail, why children are abandoned, why friendships don’t last. You might think you love someone until you see the way they act when they’re out of money, or under pressure, or hungry for goodness’ sake.

Love is something different. Love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart. Love is patient and kind, love is deliberate. Love is hard. Love is pain and sacrifice, it’s seeing the darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship.

It has been exactly 102 days. 102 days since he asked me to be his girlfriend in my church parking lot. 102 days since I said yes, not even sure if I meant it. 102 days since I was scared to death but loving every minute of it.

102 days and we are beginning to see each other’s filthy hearts. I’m scared beyond belief that any day one of us is going to jump ship.