subject line: are you scared of the dark?


medford, massachusetts 

Okay God, let’s talk. I’m not sure what all of this means, this thing called life. Everything you’re throwing at me I didn’t see coming. Not. One. Bit. I’m surprised I’m still standing but here I am. Standing and not budging. Standing still while I watch everyone and everything pass me. Screaming inside because I don’t know how to move. Where do I go or what direction do I go in? I feel like I have to put everything on hold right now because there’s just too much happening that wasn’t planned. I want to run. I wish I could just run away from all of this. I wish i could catch the next flight out of town and disappear but I can’t. You and I both know it. So many emotions, too many to count but there’s one that is stronger then the others, one that won’t ever let me forget it... Fear. I’m scared that my light is going to go out sooner than I ever expected and if it does what does that mean for me? How do I get my light to keep on burning? Please help me, i’m scared of the dark.