subject line: Common Misconceptions, Army Camo, and Broken Hearts May 10, 2015 by Hannah Brencher phoenix, arizona When I introduced myself to the silent boy who was in my Calculus class junior year, I was never expecting to find such a complicated relationship with him. I had a boyfriend of nearly two years, and i was perfectly content with him. He was nice enough for all intents and purposes, and he was willing, unlike most of the other guys I knew, to settle down in some quiet town and build a family.You destroyed every last little dream of mine. And perhaps that was the best thing that could have happened to me. You showed me everything that I hadn’t even thought to see.Unintentionally, you showed me such true love that I had never before experienced. And I hated every second of it. Not because I hated you at all. You were amazingly handsome, such a gentleman, a brilliant mind, everything my sixteen year old self had ever wanted in a man. That was the awful part. I found myself completely unsatisfied with my relationship. I started to realize all the things that were lacking.I never told you about my feelings for you. I continued in my relationship, hoping that i would forget all about you. But I couldn’t. You and I grew closer instead. My boyfriend got jealous of our relationship and he broke up with me. And even though I was truly in love with you, it shattered my heart.In the coming months, you took care of me, made me feel like I wasn’t completely worthless. You would come over all the time and have dinner with my family. But never as anything more than my adopted big brother, in your words.A few weeks ago, you came over again in your typical manner. But when we accidentally fell asleep together, spooning on the couch, and I woke up next to you, I was completely struck by how I wanted to feel that way again. But we both know that’s not a possibility. You’ve always wanted to don army camo more than you have ever wanted to come home to a wife. So much so that you went down and enlisted yourself. And I have only wanted a husband that would come home to me and love me more than anything. I stuck this letter in your rucksack in the tiny hidden pocket I sewed inside. So if you find this letter one day, know that I would cuddle with you because it was the only way I could prove that I loved you.