subject line: i get it now. May 23, 2015 by Hannah Brencher oklahoma city, oklahoma You always said, “You’re steady and peaceful, and I’ve only ever known up and down. I don’t know why you love me.” I could never understand why you couldn’t feel comfortable in my love. But tonight I looked at the man sitting across from me—a good, kind, wholesome man—and I said to him, “You’re steady and peaceful, and I’ve only known up and down the last 2 years. I don’t know why you love me.” And I swallowed hard after I said the words, because I realized I have become the very thing that broke me. I have become like you. I know now what I didn’t know then: that your inability to love me had nothing to do with me and everything to do with how you didn’t love yourself, because my inability to let him love me has absolutely nothing to do with him and everything to do with me not loving myself. I get it now. I get it now.